Sort-of Poems, Thoughts

To Breathe and to See

Light seeping in

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Those were the words I had heard months ago. And when I let my lips softly form them I felt waves of a tingling presence in my body. I have been reminded of those words several times since then. I still don’t know what to make out of them or even if they are from God. If He does want to say something to me through them. Yes, I choose to believe that. And if it isn’t so He most certainly can turn that slip, that false conviction to achieve what He intended.

I believe that. Yes, I believe that it means that I have shut in so much inside of me. Things from my childhood that have left smelly piles of debris on my inside that have created unhealthy patterns and skewed views. A view of myself and others that is not the Truth. Yeah, who knows what truth really is? Does not everyone view things from a subjective perspective and refer to what we experience to be “truth”, our experience of reality?

But I know. I know in a way that cannot be described with words. Words do not seem to give justice to the reality that I am so fully convinced of having seen.

“For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.”
(1 Cor. 13:12, ESV)

But there are so many veils that attempt to cover up the breath-taking and extremly beautiful vision of Him – the King, servant of all. What a paradox of greatness in simple shoes.

Veiled eyes. Dim light. Blurry contours. Broken whole. To see reality through smudged glasses with skewed, distored lenses makes me not to see at all. But maybe you can see me more with your eyes closed…?

“Haughty eyes and a proud heart, the lamp of the wicked, are sin.”
(Proverbs 21:4, ESV)

So, if we are proud at heart our light is sin? Since sin means separation from “the Light of the world” it must implicate that when I see through proud eyes at myself, at others and at the reality (visible and  invisible) it is not Truth I see. What I see is only what is illuminated by the lantern of sin and does not in a long-shot give justice to reality itself – Jesus Christ.

Editing this in at a later time:
Earlier tonight when I was talking to my wife, I got a picture of how we humans, in our sin (which in essence is separation from God) create our own box, a confined world, where we are king and ruler. Where everything is basically exist to satisfy our goals and objectives. We want to build our own kingdom. Our own Tower of Babel. Whether it is by worldly or religious accomplishments.

I am slowly beginning to see. Truth flowers are budding in my heart’s soil. The vermin is on the brink of extinction and the weeds are uprooted one by one. He tends to me so gently. Each shovelful and every gentle breath in me gives life not of this world.

I see Him. At least to some extent. The light seeps into darkened corners and He opens up, I let Him open. I open up to Him.

He breathes life into me. He is the Life in me. In us. We are one.

“And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.”
(2 Cor. 3:18, ESV)

There is only one way to wake up and see reality itself. The way is open to anyone who wants to humble himself, put off his ruling crown and receive Him as King.

“But when his heart was lifted up and his spirit was hardened so that he dealt proudly, he was brought down from his kingly throne, and his glory was taken from him.”
(Daniel 5:20, ESV)

“Man is humbled, and each one is brought low, and the eyes of the haughty are brought low.”
(Isiah 5:15, ESV)

Maria sings to God’s glory:
“He has shown strength with his arm;
he has scattered the proud in the thoughts of their hearts;
he has brought down the mighty from their thrones
and exalted those of humble estate;
he has filled the hungry with good things,
and the rich he has sent away empty.”
(Luke 1:51-53, ESV)

Blog News & Updates

New Blog Design

For you who have been here before and are wondering what happened to the blog: yes, the blog has gotten itself a new design. Became a bit tired of the old design for the simple reason that you could not have a column to the right or left of the main column. Really liked the colors and typograhy of the old (Chunk was the one I used before), but realized that I could not come to terms with losing columns.

I hope you like it!

Please feel free to tell me what you think?

Fellow Bloggers

Words on New Year Resolutions


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A brother in the U.S., Jamal Jivanjee, recently wrote an interesting and striking blog post on how we treat the “Word” today. As I read the scripture referenced I stopped at the words:

“… and the Word was God” (John 1:1)

It finally dawned on me that brothers and sisters around the world might mistakenly misread this and take it literally. I almost started laughing to myself, but at the same time I felt a sort of grief. So many things and “its” try to steal us away from our precious Lord. I believe satan schemes to divert our full attention from Christ, who truly deserves to be our all and to have His place of supremacy. Not that we can accomplish a prioritized list with God as our number one. I believe the only way He can become the all in all is when He can have us for long enough time to fully captivate us. I long and at the same time fear to step into that. Because I know that true fellowship with God comes from spending quality time with Him and also with brothers and sisters in community.

Are we beginning to commend ourselves again? Or do we need, as some, letters of commendation to you or from you? You are our letter, written in our hearts, known and read by all men; being manifested that you are a letter of Christ, cared for by us, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.

Such confidence we have through Christ toward God. Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God,  who also made us adequate as servants of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life. (2 Cor. 3:1-6)

I also want to divert your attention to Jamal’s new year’s resolution post from last year, which also is available to anyone who can read Swedish at the e-zine called “Hans hus av levande stenar” (His House of Living Stones, in English). It talks about how our use of words concerning Church reveals much on how we view her. I hope you can find time to read any of these and that the Lord will use it to open your eyes to more of Him.

May the Lord Jesus Christ, because of His grace, continue to open our eyes and ears to the reality of Him.

Blog News & Updates

Starting over

Starting over.

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This blog stopped for various reasons. Mostly because I never really got into the whole blogging thing. Also because real life demanded most of my time (and I made the right priorities). This little post won’t be long and is more of a symbol of a fresh start for me, in terms of blogging.

What I do like to share is a quote I stopped to think a little on today:

“The system of fathers of the world church, the clergy system of the state church, and the pastoral system of the independent churches are all the same in nature. They are all Nicolaitans. In the Bible there are only brothers. There is the gift of a pastor, but no system of pastors. The pastoral system is man’s tradition. If the children of God are not willing to return to the position of that in the beginning, no matter what they do, it will not be right.” – Watchman Nee

This was my comment to it as I posted the quote to my Facebook wall:

“True. Every believer is a member of the body, and is set to function, not just a select few.”

As the title of this blog post states I think we ought to start over at zero, when it comes to what we think we can bring before God and how we view our own strength.

Hopefully this little post marks the beginning of a living blog.

Love in Christ,

Sort-of Poems

Life as Branch

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Today I started reading a book called “The Butterfly in You” by Milt Rodriguez. The subtitle “Discovering Your True Identity in Christ” tells you what it’s about and I’ve enjoyed the introduction and first chapter thus far.

In the first chapter Milt tells the story of a worm called Fred. Fred is unknowingly not really a worm, he’s a caterpillar! His life on the ground is bound for the sky, and he doesn’t know it. Not giving away too much of the story he meets a butterfly who tells him that the “Big Blue Up” is his real home.

But this post was not all meant for that book (I do really recommend it by what I’ve read thus far), but to a little poem inspired by it. I remember my wife Theresa started reading the book a few months back and told me of the story about Fred and it got me thinking about the picture of the vine and the branches. So I started toying with writing in a similar style, through the perspective of a branch that just got grafted into a tree.

I wrote this sort-of-poem back in February and posted it on my Facebook account. Thought I might share it here as well. I hope you’ll enjoy it!

Hello everyone.
My name is Branch.
I’m new here.
Came from another tree, you see.
Was grafted in.
And I love it here!
Feels like home already.
So much life!
And love.
So intense, overflowing.
I feel light and free.
Mm, at the same time safe.

Oh, tickles when wind rustles my leaves!

The gardener prunes me.
Ooh, I’m growing…
Woo, I get to bear fruit!
Hmm, not sure how it happens.
But I can’t help it, it just does.
And when I try to make it happen,
It doesn’t.
I get so frustrated.
Almost makes me fall off.
But I rest again,
And slowly it grows.

The Head and the Body are One!
The Church is Organic, Unity

Christ and His Church are One

The Church is (in) Christ!

It exists in Christ and is part of Christ, just as the body is part of the whole; the person. The body is connected to the head, and the head to the body. They make up the person.

The one needs the other. The Lord Jesus Christ needs His body to express Himself on this earth. He is limited unless we allow ourselves to be built together to form His body.

Let yourself be built together, like living stones built around the cornerstone, to form His spiritual house, so that He may have a home and a body through which He can express Himself!

1 Peter 2:4-9

The Head and the Body are One!

The Head and the Body are One!